"Heal my heart and make it cleanOpen up my eyes to the things unseenShow me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yoursEverything I am for your kingdoms causeAs I go from nothing toEternity"
God has really been breaking my heart for what breaks his. This has been my prayer everyday as I wake up. I want God to use me here in Uganda. I want him to open up my eyes to the things that are unseen. I want him to so show me how to love others the way he has so willingly loved me. I want my heart to be broken to the things that breaks His heart. And I want everything I do be for the glory of God and I want everything I do to be for His Kingdoms cause.
We are each placed on this earth for a reason. Not our own reasons, but for God's reasons. He knew us before our parents even knew us. And at that moment when he knit us in our mother's womb, he already had a plan for our life. A plan that is bigger and better than any plan that we could ever have for ourselves.
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
Psalm 139:13-14
I know that God has big plans for me and for my life. I know that I am here in Uganda to do things for Him. I am here in Uganda so that everything I am can be for His Kingdoms Cause. Because of that I am grateful. I get to see people each day who need God's love, and I am able to share it with them.
This past week I really saw God working in the lives of some beautiful Ugandan children. The first time that God honestly completely broke my heart for what was breaking His was when we went to Katalemwe on Wednesday morning. Katalemwe is the disabilities children's hospital. When we got there on Wednesday morning, we went into the room where we always meet the children and I was able to see some familiar faces of smiling children seated at the table. But there was a few new children. The one that broke my heart the most and caught my attention the most was this young girl who was about 7 years old. She was at this children's hospital because she must have survived a very bad fire. Her face and head was almost completely covered in scars from burns. Her left ear was burned off,her left hand was missing, and most of her face was just one big scar from the burns.
When I greeted her she smiled huge and shook my hand. She sat next to me and just smiled at me as I smiled back at her. When we began to sing worship songs, she sang right along. She was filled with joy as we were there with her and she was smiling and having fun.
I took a second and looked at my own life. That morning I was concerned with what I would eat in the morning and what I would wear that day. I was worried about stupid things. Children who are at Katalemwe have to worry about if they will ever heal from these scars, fix their broken limbs, or even walk. They have to think about if they will ever go back to school. They are so young, and probably so scared.
I have so much to be thankful for. I am healthy and I was able to have a good education. These children may never see such things, yet they are still thankful... they still are rejoicing in the Lord. This just blew my mind.
I am so thankful to be here in Uganda. I am able to see the things and the people that God' heart is breaking for and in turn my heart is also breaking for them as well. I am so thankful that I am able to be here and witness these things so that I now can pray for these children and smile with them and hold their hands to let them know that someone cares about them.
God has been putting these words on my heart for years now. And I am thankful that I am in a place that each day he is actually breaking my heart for what breaks His. He is showing me how to love others as He has loved me, and he is opening my eyes to the things that are so unseen in my life back in America.
